to infinity and beyond..

big mammal has gone to taiwan, for work, for eternity (ok.. i'm being melodramatic, it's a year)..

he left on weds morning.. and i've already cried for a whole week before he left :(

despite all the rational reasoning (e.g. it's good experience for him; he'll learn mandarin; we can grow as individuals; he'll know more abt my background; we'll still be in contact; he'll visit; i'll visit after i hand in my thesis; a year's not a long time.. blah blah blah).. the plumbing is still broken, i'm still leaking, plus the unstoppable trickles of random thoughts of "what if's" and "i'll miss him".. *bawwwwww*..

whist i am trying to 'grow up' and conduct a somewhat mature and independent relationship.. nothing can change the feeling of a part of me has been ripped out.. or that pitless sensation in my tummy..

although i know there's a silver lining in here somewhere.. i know he'll be ok, i'll be ok.. but it still SUX.. bad..

forecast: occasional drizzles, overcast, showers and thunderstorms.. lots of moping, sulking and unmentionable quantities of chocolates..