that sinking feeling

i think i should've opted for a less intensive coming out of shell schedule..

it's not like i'm so social butterfly, but i've probably gone to more 'things' in the last two weeks and in the next 2 weeks, than i've been in the last YEAR! all these socialising is making my head spin!

i love my friends and family and it's some times enjoyable to meet new people, but i'm so sick of hearing my own voice at the moment.. i just desperately yearn to sit in a cafe by myself with the sunday times (sparkling example of journalistic brilliance.. not) and a big mofo cup of coffee.. and just process what has happened in my life..

i can be so ungrateful some times.. may be i should go get a big cup of toughen the F*** up..