melancholy..

adrift in a sea of questions i can't answer..

barely afloat in tears of sadness i can't control..

lost in a world i no longer know..

confused by feelings i don't understand..

overwhelmed with thoughts i don't recognise..

existential loneliness.. perplexing.. on one hand, we are all interconnected, interdependent on one another.. then why do i feel so alone? no one will have exactly the same experience as we do, no one can live our life for us..

so i reach out, then rejected by others..

others reach out to me.. then i become withdrawn..

genius and insanity, awake and ignorant, interconnected and independent, love and hate, bliss and torture.. different sides of the same coin?

may be i'm just a prisoner in my own head.. with the key of liberation in my hands..